Also by Jojo Moyes
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Also by Jojo Moyes
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The Ship of Brides
Copyright (c) 2007 by Jojo Moyes First published in Great Britain in 2007 by Hodder & Stoughton An Hachette Livre UK Company The right of Jojo Moyes to be identified as the Author of the Work has been asserted by her in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.
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For Lockie, for everything he is,
and everything he will be
My name is Kathleen Whittier Mostyn, and when I was seventeen I became famous for catching the biggest shark New South Wales had ever seen: a grey nurse with an eye so mean it still looked like it wanted to rip me in two several days after we'd laid it out. That was back in the days when all of Silver Bay was given over to game fishing, and for three straight weeks all anyone could talk about was that shark. A newspaper reporter came all the way from Newcastle and took a picture of me standing next to it (I'm the one in the bathing-suit). It's several feet taller than I am, in that picture, and the photographer made me wear my heels.
What you can see is a tall, rather stern-seeming girl, better-looking than she knew, shoulders broad enough to be the despair of her mother, and a waist trim enough from reeling and bending that she never needed a corset. There I am, unable to hide my pride, not yet aware that I would be tied to that beast for the rest of my days as surely as if we had been married. What you can't see is that he is held up by two wires, supported by my father and his business partner Mr Brent Newhaven - hauling it ashore had ripped several tendons in my right shoulder and by the time the photographer arrived I couldn't lift a mug of tea, let alone a shark.
Still, it was enough to cement my reputation. For years I was known as the Shark Girl, even when my girlhood was well over. My sister Norah always joked that, given the state of my appearance, they should have called me the Sea Urchin. But my success, my father always said, made the Bay Hotel. Two days after that picture appeared in the newspaper we were booked solid, and stayed booked solid until the west wing of the hotel burnt down in 1962. Men came because they wanted to beat my record. Or because they assumed that if a girl could land a creature like that, why, what was possible for a proper fisherman? A few came to ask me to marry them, but my father always said he could smell them before they'd hit Port Stephens and sent them packing. Women came because until then they had never thought it possible that they could catch game fish, let alone compete with the men. And families came because Silver Bay, with its protected bay, endless dunes and calm waters, was a fine place to be.
Two more jetties were hurriedly constructed to cope with the extra boat traffic, and every day the air was filled with the sound of clipped oars and outboard motors as the bay and the sea around it was virtually dredged of aquatic life. The night air was filled with the revving of car engines, soft bursts of music and glasses clinking. There was a time, during the 1950s, when it is not too fanciful to say that we were the place to be.
Now we still have our boats, and our jetties, although we only use one now, and what people are chasing is pretty different. I haven't picked up a rod in almost twenty years. I don't much care for killing things any more. We're pretty quiet, even in the summer. Most of the holiday traffic heads to the clubs and high-rise hotels, the more obvious delights of Coffs Harbour or Byron Bay and, to tell the truth, that suits most of us just fine.
I still hold that record. It's noted in one of those doorstop-sized books that sell in huge numbers, and no one you know ever buys. The editors do me the honour of ringing me now and then to let me know my name will be included for another year. Occasionally the local schoolchildren stop by to tell me they've found me in the library, and I always act surprised, just to keep them happy.
But I still hold that record. I tell you that not out of any desire to boast, or because I'm a seventy-six-year-old woman and it's nice to feel I once did something of note, but because when you're surrounded by as many secrets as I am, it feels good to get things straight out in the open occasionally.
If you stuck your hand in right up to the wrist, you could usually uncover at least three different kinds of biscuit in Moby One's jar. Yoshi said that the crews on the other boats always skimped on biscuits, buying the cheapest arrowroot in value packs at the supermarket. But she reckoned that if you'd paid nearly a hundred and fifty dollars to go out chasing dolphins, the least you could expect was a decent biscuit. So she bought all-butter Anzacs - thick, oaty, double-layered with chocolate - Scotch Fingers, Mint Slices wrapped in foil and very occasionally, if she could get away with it, home-baked cookies. Lance, the skipper, said she got decent biscuits because they were pretty well all she had to eat. He also said that if their boss ever caught her spending that much on biscuits he'd squash her like a Garibaldi. I stared at the biscuits, as Moby One headed out into Silver Bay, holding up the tray as Yoshi offered the passengers tea and coffee. I was hoping they wouldn't eat all the Anzacs before I had a chance to take one. I'd snuck out without breakfast, and I knew it was only when we headed into the cockpit that she'd let me dip in.
'Moby One to Suzanne, how many beers did you sink last night? You're steering a course like a one-legged drunk.'
Lance was on the radio. As we went in, I dropped my hand straight into the biscuit jar and pulled out the last Anzac. The ship-to-ship radio crackled, and a voice muttered something I couldn't make out. He tried again: 'Moby One to Sweet Suzanne. Look, you'd better straighten up, mate . . . you've got four passengers up front hanging over the rails. Every time you swerve they're decorating your starboard windows.'
Lance MacGregor's voice sounded
like it had been rubbed down with wire wool, like the boat's sides. He took one hand off the wheel and Yoshi gave him a mug of coffee. I tucked myself in behind her. The spray on the back of her navy blue uniform sparkled like sequins.
'You seen Greg?' Lance asked.
She nodded. 'I got a good look before we set off.'
'He's so done in he can't steer straight.' He pointed out of the droplet-flecked window towards the smaller boat. 'I tell you, Yoshi, his passengers will be asking for refunds. The one in the green hat hasn't lifted his head since we passed Break Nose Island. What the hell's got into him?'
Yoshi Takomura had the prettiest hair I'd ever seen. It hung in black clouds round her face, never tangling despite the effects of wind and salt water. I took one of my own mousy locks between my fingers; it felt gritty, although we had been on the water only half an hour. My friend Lara said that when she hit fourteen, in four years' time, her mum was going to let her put streaks in hers. It was then that Lance had caught sight of me. I guess I'd known he would.
'What are you doing here, Squirt? Your mum'll have my guts for garters. Don't you have school or something?'
'Holidays.' I stepped back behind Yoshi, a little embarrassed. Lance always talked to me like I was five years younger than I was.
'She'll stay out of sight,' Yoshi said. 'She just wanted to see the dolphins.'
I stared at him, pulling my sleeves down over my hands.
He stared back, then shrugged. 'You gonna wear a lifejacket?'
'And not get under my feet?'
I tilted my head. As if, my eyes said.
'Be nice to her,' said Yoshi. 'She's been ill twice already.'
'It's nerves,' I said. 'My tummy always does it.'
'Ah . . . Hell. Look, just make sure your mum knows it was nothing to do with me, okay? And listen, Squirt, head for Moby Two next time - or, even better, someone else's boat.'
'You never saw her,' said Yoshi. 'Anyway, Greg's steering's not the half of it.' She grinned. 'Wait till he turns and you see what he's done to the side of his prow.'
It was, Yoshi said, as we headed back out, a good day to be on the water. The sea was a little choppy, but the winds were mild, and the air so clear that you could see the white horses riding the little breakers miles into the distance. I followed her to the main restaurant deck, my legs easily absorbing the rise and fall of the catamaran beneath me, a little less self-conscious now that the skipper knew I was on board.
This, she had told me, would be the busiest part of today's dolphin-watching trip, the time between setting off and our arrival at the sheltered waters round the bay where the pods of bottlenoses tended to gather. While the passengers sat up on the top deck, enjoying the crisp May day through woollen mufflers, Yoshi, the steward, was laying out the buffet, offering drinks and, if the water was choppy, which it was most days now that winter was coming, preparing the disinfectant and bucket for seasickness. It didn't matter how many times you told them, she grumbled, glancing at the well-dressed Asians who made up most of the morning's custom, they would stay below decks, they would eat and drink too quickly and they would go into the tiny lavatories to be sick, rather than hanging over the edge, thereby making them unusable by anyone else. And if they were Japanese, she added, with a hint of malicious pleasure, they would spend the rest of the voyage in a silent frenzy of humiliation, hiding behind dark glasses and raised collars, their ashen faces turned resolutely to sea.
'Tea? Coffee? Biscuits? Tea? Coffee? Biscuits?'
I followed her out on to the foredeck, pulling my windcheater up round my neck. The wind had dropped a little but I could still feel the chill in the air, biting at my nose and the tips of my ears. Most of the passengers didn't want anything - they were chatting loudly, to be heard above the engines, gazing out at the distant horizon, and taking pictures of each other. Now and then I dipped my hand into the biscuits until I'd taken what I thought they would have eaten anyway.
Moby One was the biggest catamaran - or 'cat', as the crews called them - in Silver Bay. It was usually a two-steward vessel, but the tourists were tailing off as the temperature dropped, so it was just Yoshi now until trade picked up again. I didn't mind - it was easier to persuade her to let me aboard. I helped her put the tea and coffee pots back in their holders, then stepped back out on to the narrow side deck, where we braced ourselves against the windows, and gazed across the sea to where the smaller boat was still making its uneven path across the waves. Even from this distance we could see that more people now were hanging over Suzanne's rails, their heads lower than their shoulders, oblivious of the spattered red paint just below them. 'We can take ten minutes now. Here.' Yoshi cracked open a can of cola and handed it to me. 'You ever heard of chaos theory?'
'Mmm.' I made it sound like I might.
'If only those people knew,' she wagged a finger as we felt the engines slow, 'that their long-awaited trip to go see the wild dolphins has been ruined by an ex-girlfriend they will never meet and a man who now lives with her more than two hundred and fifty kilometres away in Sydney and thinks that purple cycling shorts are acceptable daywear.'
I took a gulp of my drink. The fizz made my eyes water and I swallowed hard. 'You're saying the tourists being sick on Greg's boat is down to chaos theory?' I'd thought it was because he'd got drunk again the night before.
Yoshi smiled. 'Something like that.'
The engines had stopped, and Moby One quieted, the sea growing silent around us, except for the tourist chatter and the waves slapping against the sides. I loved it out here, loved watching my house become a white dot against the narrow strip of beach, then disappear behind the endless coves. Perhaps my pleasure was made greater by the knowledge that what I was doing was against the rules. I wasn't rebellious, not really, but I kind of liked the idea of it.
Lara had a dinghy that she was allowed to take out by herself, staying within the buoys that marked out the old oyster beds, and I envied her. My mother wouldn't let me roam around the bay, even though I was nearly eleven. 'All in good time,' she would murmur. There was no point arguing with her about stuff like that.
Lance appeared beside us: he'd just had his photograph taken with two giggling teenagers. He was often asked to pose with young women, and hadn't yet been known to refuse. It was why he liked to wear his captain's peaked cap, Yoshi said, even when the sun was hot enough to melt his head.
'What's he written on the side of his boat?' He squinted at Greg's cruiser in the distance. He seemed to have forgiven me for being on board.
'I'll tell you back at the jetty.'
I caught the eyebrow cocked towards me. 'I can read what it says, you know,' I said. The other boat, which had until yesterday described itself as the Sweet Suzanne, now suggested, in red paint, that 'Suzanne' do something Yoshi said was a biological impossibility. She turned to him, lowering her voice as far as possible - as if she thought I couldn't hear her. 'The missus told him there was another man after all.'
Lance let out a long whistle. 'He said as much. And she denied it.'
'She was hardly going to admit it, not when she knew how Greg was going to react. And he was hardly an innocent . . .' She glanced at me. 'Anyway, she's off to live in Sydney, and she said she wants half the boat.'
'And he says?'
'I think the boat probably says it all.'
'Can't believe he'd take tourists out with it like that.' Lance lifted his binoculars better to study the scrawled red lettering.
Yoshi gestured at him to pass them to her. 'He was so crook this morning I'm not sure he's even remembered what he's done.'
We were interrupted by the excited yells of the tourists on the upper deck. They were jostling towards the pulpit at the front.
'Here we go,' muttered Lance, straightening up and grinning at me. 'There's our pocket money, Squirt. Time to get back to work.'
Sometimes, Yoshi said, they could run the whole bay but the bottlenoses would refuse to show, and a boat ful
l of unsatisfied dolphin-watchers was a boat full of free second trips and fifty-per-cent refunds, both guaranteed to send the boss into meltdown.
At the bow, a group of tourists were pressed together, cameras whirring as they tried to catch the glossy grey shapes that were now riding the breaking waves below. I checked the water to see who had come to play. Below decks, Yoshi had covered a wall with photographs of the fins of every dolphin in the area. She had given them all names: Zigzag, One Cut, Piper . . . The other crews had laughed at her, but now they could all recognise the distinctive fins - it was the second time they'd seen Butterknife that week, they'd murmur. I knew the name of every one by heart.
'Looks like Polo and Brolly,' Yoshi said, leaning over the side.
'Is that Brolly's baby?'
The dolphins were silent grey arcs, circling the boat as if they were the sightseers. Every time one broke the surface the air was filled with the sound of clacking camera shutters. What did they think of us gawping at them? I knew they were as smart as humans. I used to imagine them meeting up by the rocks afterwards, laughing in dolphin language about us - the one in the blue hat, or the one with the funny glasses.
Lance's voice came over the PA system: 'Ladies and gentlemen, please do not rush to one side to see the dolphins. We will slowly turn the ship so that everyone can get a good view. If you rush to one side we are likely to capsize. Dolphins do not like boats that fall over.'
Glancing up, I noticed two albatross; pausing in mid-air, they folded their wings and dived, sending up only the faintest splash as they hit the water. One rose again, wheeling in search of some unseen prey, then the other rejoined it, soaring above the little bay and disappeared. I watched them go. Then, as Moby One slowly shifted position, I leant over the side, sticking my feet under the bottom rail to see my new trainers. Yoshi had promised she'd let me sit in the boom nets when the weather got warmer, so that I could touch the dolphins, perhaps even swim with them. But only if my mother agreed. And we all knew what that meant.
I stumbled as the boat moved unexpectedly. It took me a second to register that the engines had started up. Startled, I grabbed the handrail. I had grown up in Silver Bay and knew there was a way of doing things around dolphins. Shut down engines if you want them to play. If they keep moving, hold a parallel course, be guided by them. Dolphins made things pretty clear: if they liked you they came close, or kept an even distance. If they didn't want you around they swam away. Yoshi frowned at me, and as the catamaran lurched, we grabbed the lifelines. My confusion was mirrored in her face.